5/26/25

I’ve been very bad at updating this site. I apologize. life update - I graduated college!!! woohooooo! that’s why i’ve been bad at operating this site. to be honest, sometimes instagram really stresses me out. and I don’t know how to properly direct traffic to here, or if what the site looks like now is what I actually want it to be, so I think in the near future, now that I am free from school, I will regroup and redesign the site again to get it how I want it.

i’ve been doing this thing today called “no phone day” where I don’t let myself use my phone. sometimes I have these moments where i’m ready to delete everything and get rid of my phone, usually after a few doomscrolling days over a weekend because I always drain myself of energy during the week and then do nothing over the weekend. not always. but too often. so today i’ve used my laptop instead, pretending my iMessage on my laptop is like AIM so I can still text my friends but still be off my phone. and I am allowed to use my phone for music or for posting on instagram, but no scrolling. the rules seem kinda dumb because I’m still having screen time, but being on my laptop instead of my phone feels more productive and better. and i’ve in general had a really productive day. like so productive I cleaned the inside of the refrigerator.

anyway, i’ve been going through some big thoughts about the future and adulting and stuff now that im a college grad. so, here is an excerpt from something I wrote in my real, actual journal that I think sums up how I feel right now.

“Doing more, but also less, and new and old and some big girl scary things but also a much needed change. wearing the same clothes but styled differently, and finally figuring out how to style my hair and wear my makeup. and longing for a more minimal lifestyle but still collecting things. just having less of everything that doesn’t matter and collecting things that mean the most to me.

And cooking new things and hopefully going back to ballet. we’ll see about that.”

signing off.